DISSAPOINTED AGAIN

Hi Reader... It has been a long time, i didn't write my english notes. I faced many problem in last weeks of my life. It started after i met the director of Provinsi Hospital (one of my place target to get a job). I was very dissapointed with everything that i have faced. It needed two weeks to apply my application at this hospital then i was rejected with an irrasional reason. I asked to my self that why my luvly country has rejected me. I tired of all the problem. I hated it. They thought that they have done right thing. Contrary, all of them were very bad thing. It only produced many sufferings in my life. I have cried for many times and angry to many people around of me included my parents. I realized that  it was mad, but i am only a human being. I had so many dream and today is not a time to try something again, it is creating time. I need my freedom. That's why, no training activity... no english notes... no journal translating and no anything else. I was only sleeping in my bed, watching television, and eating what i want to eat.  No purposes activity actually. It comes from my self, like a protest to all of the interesting people which forced me to do or to think like what they want. 

Reviewing all the phenomenon, i knew that they wanted me to change my mind and follow everything they want. This is the biggest part which made me sick. The imposibble thing because they want to change my conviction. It has a same case with changing my believing in GOD. Can you believe it? It is an infraction of my human rights. In a modern century and developing country, there was no freedom. I laugh at my self... No wonder that this country has many difficulty to change it self being a big country. I thought that big country occurs from big person. Every person need to build their ability and talent. Be diligently is the most important thing. Planting this characteristic in our self. Time by time, it will changed be our culture. Then, we will have something that we can bring to the international relationship. This is a good moment to introduced our country in a big screen of world. Although, it is not mean be individually. If we used to living in togetherness, getting many friends in many backgrounds (ethnic, religion, and race), this behaviour will stayed in your self surely. But, no togetherness in poor and lazyness. Have they seen the result of what they had done? Poor and Lazyness are the answer of it. So wellcome...

Changing now, as fast as possible. Actually, i have released all of my dream. I have just run my life with a big hope to get my freedom and being a good doctor in the future. I don't know when it will be stopped. My conviction never be changed. As long as it never damage the society, i believe that it is true. Hopefully... Everything will be happy ending.